Saturday, August 28, 2004

hmmx.. must study hard le.. opened the long unopened windows to let in the sun's energy.. on the lights.. on the music.. time to really work hard.. next week term test le.. all bros from 3A/02 we must really work hard.. lets be the best class! i'll do my part n not pull down the results.. i hope la.. =)
GAMBATTEH all!!!

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

hmmx.. cant publish.. attempt 2..



hmmx.. today was quite a short day in sch.. missed the morning "entrepeneurship".. cos was really too tired n sleepy to go.. hmmx.. met yvonne at lakeside at 1.10 lidat.. then went to sch.. cos saw her online before that.. and just nice she oso goin sch le.. though study nyp.. but take same train ma.. so lidat lo.. reached sch 1.30 liaox.. they passed the interesting videos around.. hmmx.. was conscientiously doing my tutorials.. hmmx quite confident that i know wats going on in this module.. feels great to know wats going on.. hehe.. achievement for me.. hmmx.. was contact time.. our class did a flash presentation.. quite nice.. ~~recalls the past~~ hmmx.. got peifen.. n kong.. haha.. stories to be told.. but shall not talk about it here.. maybe next time ba.. when i have long enuff time to write abt all 3 yrs of poly life.. hmmx after sch rushed off to meet xw n hj for dinner in nus.. haha.. got babes lehx.. hmmx.. then after that went jp meet j to study for about an hour then go home le.. =)

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

hmmx.. today ended sch earli at abt 2+pm.. cos some lessons were cancelled and another dismissed earli.. hmmx.. after that.. the 2 darrens and huiz came my place to supposedly study geotech? haha.. then ended up they watched some interesting videos on my comp.. quite funny though.. hmmx.. ended up studying a lil bit of geotech in the end.. oh well.. i didnt touch my notes.. baaaa...

Monday, August 23, 2004

i would always thot i could make a difference in someone's life.. but im wrong.. i cant even get my own life into proper place.. feeling so down today.. was suffering from a bad headache all day long.. couldnt get any peace at all.. listening to sad music soothens ur mood.. hmmx currently listening to "wish" by S.E.N.S.. hmmx.. piano music is really wonderful.. can get a peace of mind just by listening.. n doing nothing else.. at a lost in muh pathetic life again.. cant get any directions right.. sighz..

Sunday, August 15, 2004

hmmx.. last nite was the bird's bday celebration.. we had around 10+ pple there.. ermx.. but come to think of it.. i shall continue later.. i FEEL FREAKING SLEEPY!! didn't get to sleep much last nite.. and i just gotten home.. shall update later.. =)

Saturday, August 14, 2004

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aLone I staNd amOng tHe beD oF sTars..

sHine gEtting weakEr wiTh eaCh pasSing mOment..

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Thursday, August 12, 2004

the previous email desmondfoo@farnieworld.com is no longer in use..
current emails are..
primary: dnom53d@yahoo.com.sg
secondary: desmondfoo@hotmail.com



saw juan today.. she looks different le.. dyed her hair.. or maybe.. i should tell u all about this story before starting to say about today..



"miss u.. take care.."
"""err.. dun so mushy.. bf will mind"""
"sorry.. i understand wat u mean.."
"""ok"""
sighz.. miss you so much.. really do.. haix.. so long le still lidat..

Saturday, August 07, 2004

everyone finds me only when they need my help.. no one cares about me.. no one cares about how i feel.. sometimes.. they only show pity to me.. i dun nid pity.. i nid concern.. someone who is really concerned.. is there really no such person? every other day i suffer suicidal thoughts.. anyone actually noes? anyone actually cares? no ones does.. no one noes the pain i feel each day.. the misery i go thru.. its not for comparing.. its only i myself who feels it.. i just banged my head hard against the cabinet.. i felt nothing.. nothing.. how can i help myself? many a times i try to crawl out of this deep dark pit.. but nv have i really succeeded.. yes there might be hands to help me.. but wat i see are evil expressions on their face.. cant there be anyone sincere to care and be concerned about me? wat can i do? im really lost.. im really feeling very miserable.. haiz.



home alone on a saturday yet again.. dunno how many saturdays its been that I spent alone at home.. haix.. :(
+pros of a fonebk+ to let u find ur fren
-cons of a fonebk- to let u be ignored



this cute ger... haix... haix... reading this? haix...

Friday, August 06, 2004

hmmx.. didnt sleep well last nite.. basically was rushing the freaking report but kept dozing off.. missed this morning's lesson.. and basically.. thats the whole of today's lesson.. haix.. cos i woke up late and i had to rush the freaking report.. and after rushing the report.. all i got from the teacher was.. "we'll keep this aside first".. without even seriously looking at it.. damn.. shldnt have rushed this hard if I had known it wouldnt be appreciated.. =(
went to sch at 12.30 to submit the report.. had FYP meeting till around 2.. finalised our idea of going to sec schs to do presentations.. after that went clubbing.. only jh and tan was there.. jh left soon after.. i played carrom with tan and buddy classmates.. played till 5.. then they had MC meeting.. then played with pepsi, sherry and kimiko.. but kimiko left soon after.. then they 2 vs me 1.. lucky today I on form.. keep winning.. haha.. was late for meeting ber and hj for dinner.. in the end the left le.. I had a fast dinner then went WCP to look for them.. was up on the rope pyramid.. the feeling is so great.. wind blowing.. and u get to enjoy the view from the top.. was dark by then.. could see stars.. its been a really long time since I last went star gazing.. really miss it.. shall go to changi beach soon one of these days.. to me thats the best place for star gazing.. but still.. I do not have a gf to enjoy this romantic activity with me.. sobx..
treated them to some stuffs at Mac.. then left soon after..
=HomE SweeT HomE=

Thursday, August 05, 2004

haiz.. 4 hrs left to finish a business plan which I haven't even started on.. can die.. haix.. gone case liao la!! damnx!!



+ time to grow up and mature a lil more.. +
+ time to learn to organise my time n such.. +
+ time to learn how to organise my thoughts.. +
+ time to learn how to control my emotions.. +

Monday, August 02, 2004

hmmx.. feeling so eva emotional again.. today didnt go sch.. went to see doctor for my "butt" treatment.. its private.. hmmx.. saw jurcanie at the clinic.. a gal from my pri sch.. last time used to play together one.. and turned out now.. she doesn't recognise me.. and doesn't even remembers who i am.. well at least her aunt does remember.. haix.. well thats life.. young one doesnt remember.. but old one does.. ironical.. hahaz..
days have past.. gals.. gals n more gals.. who are they? are they whom I really see with my eyes? or are they all still hidden behind their masks? haix who do I really know? and who really knows me? haix.. =/

Sunday, August 01, 2004

hmmx.. kinda cant get to sleep.. very confused.. wats on ur mind? whos on ur mind? what are u tinking of? haix.. tell me?

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