Monday, October 11, 2004

hmmms.. let me say about the story between me n jes.. well.. we met each other at orchard sometime in aug.. somehow met my fren at orchard n joined them for dinner and shes there.. after that got her frenster from my fren and somehow got to noe her better from there.. then we met up on 10/9/2004.. went to find her at marina.. she was with her godsis n her godsis bf.. everything was really smooth.. and somehow i put my arms around her shoulders and we got together somehow.. quite magical actually.. but we just did.. was supposed to go clubbing that nite.. but gave up the idea cos of her.. we went to lao pa sa to eat supper.. then we held hands.. hugged.. was really close.. after that all four of us went to her house.. to play mahjong.. but she nv play.. on the way.. in cab.. she was in my arms as she asked me.. " are we really together or play play de?" i said.. yes.. =) ahha.. she sat on my lap as we were playing.. felt really sweet.. very loving.. haha.. then i won 40 plus.. lol.. was realli sweet.. next mon we went to white sands to have breakfast at macdonalds.. was very sweet.. haha.. she gave me the sausages.. =)
after breakfast i went home cos i had to go sentosa and she had to go for her dunno who de wedding.. we met up again later in the day.. she came by my house.. was watching movie.. then after that somehow felt sick n tired.. so didnt send her home.. felt really bad.. few days later we met again.. go her workplace there to eat.. ahah.. got free dishes.. lols.. cos got contacts there.. but quite hard to smuggle.. was really sweet eating with her.. =) after that send her home.. few days later.. met her at tamp mall.. meet her ex n her god sis.. we went to play pool.. felt some jealousy from her ex.. think he still likes her.. but shes mine.. haha.. so didnt really bother.. after playing was really late le.. so just sent her to bus stop.. we shared ice cream~~ =P haah.. then few days later.. i somehow got drunk one nite.. and i uttered nonsense to her via sms.. telling her not to be too serious and stuffs.. cos i noe very well that before this.. im quite a flirt.. and im afraid of hurting her.. somehow.. the words i said hurt her alot.. and she ask me one question.. she asked me how long i think we would last.. i wanted to be honest with her.. i said a few mths.. cuz i wasnt sure if we cld last long.. she was really hurt.. she felt i was cheating her feelings.. and she told me to give her sometime to reconsider abt the r/s.. somehow.. at that moment.. i realised how much she'd mean to me.. though we known each other not for long.. and havent been together for long.. i realised my love for her was growing strong.. i tried to apologise and salvage.. but her reply on 23/9/04 was " sorry.. i think we better be frens.. thanks for everything.." sighz.. i was devastated.. i tried very hard to salvage.. but she was determined.. my words were of no use.. almost one week plus later.. i heard shes gotten a bf.. sigh.. my heart broke into pieces den.. i didnt noe how to react.. sigh.. i really miss her.. might sound ridiculous.. but i hasnt really felt this kinda feelings b4.. sigh.. even if i did b4.. its a long time ago.. sigh.. i really miss u jes..

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